Monday.
For more than a moment
Misplacing motivation
In myopic misery;
Moping,
Maudlin.
Meditating,
My murky mist mellowed,
Momentarily.
Maybe if
Mindful
Of my microscopic
Mark
In this massive macrocosm
Might I find
More meaning?
(Meh)
My mind meanders.
Music’s murmured mumbling
Magnifies the missing.
Mercy?
No more!
I am merely a man,
Miserable on Monday.
Walking through the fields
Of frail poppies
Sown in sorrow
From broken
Promises
Fragments
Found
Soaked
In blood
Placed
In the ground
That we might walk
In fields of sorrows
And see the poppies in a different light.
Truly believing
Contradictory advice
Increases despair
My beard
Grows whiter
In the night
As darkness
Sucks away
The light
It lingers
Even
In the day.
I wish to God
It weren’t this way.
—
Heartbreak ages us more than the years.
I am.
You do not
Give me
Breath
Yet when
I am
With you
My chest
Fills
With life.
You do not
Make
My heart
Beat
Yet when
You speak
It pounds a march
Which I
Must follow.
You are
Not all
Yet
When you are
Here
I am more.
I am.
—
Without you
My heart beats
To remind me
Of each second
Since you left.
—
Opening a door
To pain
I let it in
I feel it
I know it
Once again.
Took down the pictures painfully
Hoping thus my mind to free.
I know your life’s already clean
Of every little trace of ‘we’.
So tear up what it hurts to see,
But cannot burn the memories.
Sitting in silence
I cannot hear myself think
Volumes are spoken
Hold on to my hand
Here under the fresh blossoms
May we find our spring
Some sad wishes come up short
Stuck fast upon the side;
Unrequited expectations
Hopes which now have died.
I wonder what would happen
If I helped them on their way;
Would those wishes still be wished
Or now cause bitter pain?
—
If wishes all were horses
Could you make them drink?
You can throw a wish in water
But you cannot make it sink.
What I didn’t tell you
Is that when I light a candle
I always light two
Placing them together
One for me and one for you
That in some way
We might still warm each other
For a little while longer.
—
Edited
Learning to love the silence 