Masquerade

Black slumber’s edge will not abate
And though still dark I know I’m late
But what is there to rise and meet
When nevermore upon the street
Will I with casual glance of eye
Perceive your presence closely by
The dark it holds me like a vice
Slow crushing every chance for life
I’d give it all though none remains
Today to stay in bed again

Now rising from this prison seen
While shadow grips so dark and mean
For none can tell from practised smile
I’m walking out but mask with guile
The proof of life by all perceived
By will alone worn to deceive
And if you ask “how goes your day”
I’ll smile and say “yes, I’m ok”
Such lies which seem so small at first
Turn out in time to hurt the worst.

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The scary part is
I remember everything
Even without you.

Pond becomes frozen
Slowly sun rises warming
Frozen becomes pond

Lick it

Momma said
Dont lick the knife
You’ll cut yourself
And sure, shes right
But blood is what
This body craves,
On rising from
Unhallowed grave.

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Thoughts on passing a church in the dark.

Let me burn

Light the match
Watch it burn
As elsewhere all
The world still turns

Pile up
All the memories
And cast a flame
In gentle breeze

If magic were
Within my grasp
Would I this mind
Erase at last
Or keep it all
Enshrined for aye
Remembering
Our summer days

The flame it flickers
Catches light
Shining out
This darkened night
Plunging headlong
In the fire
Scrabbling
To save desire
Wrench from ashes
What remains
Amidst the kiss
Of gentle flames
Once more to feel
That tender touch
Warmth I’ve missed
Can’t help but clutch
As burning fingers
Catch alight
To match a heart
Which burned too bright
Here let me be
In all consumed
My body burns
As soul was too.

Thought wrong

Thought I’d know just what to say
To stop your need to run away.
Thought I’d know just what to do
To keep on holding, loving you.
Thought I’d know just what to think
Before life took me to the brink.

Thought I had a handle
But I haven’t reached the mantle
And far from understanding more
I’ve grown a rotten selfish core
That’s drowning in the fires it lit
Before reality in fullness hit.

Thought I’d know just what to say
To heal the hurt and stop the pain.
Thought I’d know just what to do
To keep from coming back to you.
Thought I’d know just what to think
But never knew how low I’d sink.

And after all I wonder
If you too remember
The sweet sadness
Of that last kiss.

Eternal

When its over
Swallowed by
Forgiving earth
Laid down
Finally to find
Rest
Among the roses
Will I
Still miss
You

Remember

The lights in the sky
Which will always remind
Of losing my way
With nothing to guide.

Alone in that darkness
Without any light
While the city erupted
Under moon ever bright.

Years keep on turning
But always the same
On this fifth of November
My heart calls your name.

Lost in scent of tea
Old memories awaken
Find golden sunrise