Sing of smiles

When you look at me
And smile
A part of me
Starts singing
I don’t yet know
The words
But the sound
Is softly thrilling

2am

Voices
Speaking
Crawling
Bedward
Making
Themselves
Content
Finding
Spaces
Emptied

Where
There
Were
Two
Now
Is
Just
One

Voices
Creeping
Sneaking
Into
Dreaming
Leaving
Restless
Always
Laughing
Sneering

Keep
Them
With
Me
To
Fill
The
Void

Voices
Finding
Empty
Without
Safety
Shelter
Under
Covers
Listen
Weeping

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Lingering remains

Tel
Out my soul
Like cancer
From such fragile bones
Self excised
Yet lingering
To painfully
Remain
The heart
It beats the same
Not so easily deleted
As a number
Repeating like refrain
A four letter retelling
Of a name
I am more than just the pain
But memories
Of life before you came
(Or didn’t)
Deserving more
Than self disdain
Or so I’m bidden
But can’t shake hurt
Which surface-wise is hidden
Yet will not go away
Like a name
Deleted
Once again

Lick it

Momma said
Dont lick the knife
You’ll cut yourself
And sure, shes right
But blood is what
This body craves,
On rising from
Unhallowed grave.

_____________________

Thoughts on passing a church in the dark.

Let me burn

Light the match
Watch it burn
As elsewhere all
The world still turns

Pile up
All the memories
And cast a flame
In gentle breeze

If magic were
Within my grasp
Would I this mind
Erase at last
Or keep it all
Enshrined for aye
Remembering
Our summer days

The flame it flickers
Catches light
Shining out
This darkened night
Plunging headlong
In the fire
Scrabbling
To save desire
Wrench from ashes
What remains
Amidst the kiss
Of gentle flames
Once more to feel
That tender touch
Warmth I’ve missed
Can’t help but clutch
As burning fingers
Catch alight
To match a heart
Which burned too bright
Here let me be
In all consumed
My body burns
As soul was too.

Thought wrong

Thought I’d know just what to say
To stop your need to run away.
Thought I’d know just what to do
To keep on holding, loving you.
Thought I’d know just what to think
Before life took me to the brink.

Thought I had a handle
But I haven’t reached the mantle
And far from understanding more
I’ve grown a rotten selfish core
That’s drowning in the fires it lit
Before reality in fullness hit.

Thought I’d know just what to say
To heal the hurt and stop the pain.
Thought I’d know just what to do
To keep from coming back to you.
Thought I’d know just what to think
But never knew how low I’d sink.

And after all I wonder
If you too remember
The sweet sadness
Of that last kiss.

Eternal

When its over
Swallowed by
Forgiving earth
Laid down
Finally to find
Rest
Among the roses
Will I
Still miss
You

Remember

The lights in the sky
Which will always remind
Of losing my way
With nothing to guide.

Alone in that darkness
Without any light
While the city erupted
Under moon ever bright.

Years keep on turning
But always the same
On this fifth of November
My heart calls your name.

Groove

The record finishes
I replace the needle
Cannot bring it to an end
Strung out
This hearbreak heartbeat
Keeps the beat
Scratching
At the surface
Walk the grooves’
Familiar streets
Before static
Pauses
Between repeats
Echoes still
The music sweet
Find you
In the gentle heat
That warms my blood
Where still it beats
Repeats
Repeats
Repeats
Repeats
Find you in the music
Of this heart’s forever beat