Memories crawl out
This quiet night survival
Takes you to the edge

Emergency

I keep emergency coffee.

Reminder:
Keep a little behind
Save pay
For come what may
You know
That dreaded rainy day
When it pours
Indoors
Or we swap boardrooms
For sweeping floors.

But

I didn’t think
To pay attention
Failed to store
Those things
It hurts to mention

I should have saved
Emergency hugs
Banked kisses
Stored sweet sensation
Held on to holding you
That catalogue of your affection
A well to be dipped into
At will

Then
I might be able to sleep
Soundly

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My stomach growls
As I sit looking
At your last message
Hoping it will fill me up
With something
Other than emptiness

Pause

Time has moved all elsewhere on
Yet here I still remain
Rooted to the very spot
Screaming out your name
With arms raised to the heavens
Man’s litter at my feet
Squirrels nest within my hair
Standing on the street
Perpetually I’m killing time
The way that Beckett knew
Not bothered with the loomers’ line
Just waiting here for you.

Neural pathways

Can’t escape
Associations
For brain
By nature
Makes connections

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The friendly guy who sat next to me at the conference table, whose daughter teaches at your alma mater.

A woman bending down to speak to a small boy in the park.

The music of a marine band drifting across the park.

Not including those places intentionally avoided to dodge the daggers poised to pierce my heart.

It doesn’t take much to make a connection while you remain the nexus of my thoughts.

My damned heart
Finds you
Even in stories
Of others.

Drowning in words

Wallowing
Like treacle
Sticks
To my legs
Pulls me under
This sickly stench
Of iron blood
Makes me retch
Stop the voice
In my fingers
Silence me
Fill my lungs
Before I call out
Silent screams
Of daydream nightmares
Always
Remains unanswered
Can you hear
No
Just my mind
Playing tricks
Again
You were never there.

Begin to glow

The river
Beckoning below
Drawing me
Into its flow
Passing judgement
On the show
Willing me
To let it go
Should I stay
I do not know
Terrible
The choices grow
Wind it whispers
Change and grow
Break out of your
Tempestuous woe
But oh to dance
To music slow
Hold her hands
Feet toe to toe
See those eyes
Begin to glow
But here I stand
Apart alone
The river
Beckoning below.

No need for whiskey

No need for whiskey
Now melancoly is distilled
Deep within this vessel
From grains of truth
Fallen petals of discarded bouquets
And all the water
Under the bridge

Years

What would it be like
Not to miss you
Memories
Permeate
Solid state mind
That time heals
Is only true
Because we die
Glad I’m not
A vampire
Eternity
Without you
Would see me
Reaching
For a spike